Yep. I’ve been suicidal since I as 6 years old. Back then I had to deal with it each and every single night. I wanted to commit suidice before I knew what it was. I didn’t know about wrist slitting or ODing. All I knew is that I wanted to die and that we had knives. I just supposed that stabbing myself in the heart would work. The biggest problem with being so suicidal for so long is that it really makes you hate life. I know, I know, life is a precious gift, but my biggest problem is a religious one. I love everything about Jesus, but the reward you were supposed to have for following God is eternal life ; but to me, THATS hell. An eternity of this??? ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!?! Geez…makes you want to kill yourself, doesn’t it 😛 But seriously, I wonder if anyone else feels this way. O, and my suicidal thoughts are brought about by bipolar type II and just the horrible things that have happened in my life. If anyone else has similar feelings and wants to hear my story, just tell me and I will be glad to tell it.
love,
A
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I don’t understand your point of posting this…
your story is very helpful to me…i hope you are feeling and we can talk moer but i would love to hear the rest of you story..I hope you read my story its calle (life has ended)