i cant even count the number of times ive tidied up my room and prepared to hang myself from the fan. everytime i sware that this is it.. ive gotten as far as just having to kick the stool away from me.. but i just cant do it.. i want to so badly.. i want to die.. i do.. i dont want to be me anymore.. i keep thinking of everone who’s ever taken that leap.. what their last thoughts were.. maybe next time..
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I guess I am a sissy, because all of my attempts were with mass quantities of drugs and alcohol. I’ve been in a coma for a week and I cannot explain why I did it. I am such an introvert that it seems almost like I live within myself and I do not like what I see. I really just need someone to talk to sometimes and I really need a good cry alot of times, but men don’t cry. So I bottle until it ruptures. By the way, I am bipolar, and I truly understand the word “desparation”. No next time, OK?
I think that hanging yourself is one of the longest, most painful, suicides that people use in the current day.
What most people (I find) think, is that it deprives you of air. It may do that, but depending on how you hang. What mostly happens is you hang there and it breaks your neck. Your neck breaking also breaks your main way of getting blood to your head. It can take 3 minutes to actually die. So I really suggest not doing that if you want the painless approach.
Gun to the head: Almost painless and very quick, if you have the guts to pull the trigger (Provided you don’t miss)
OD-ing/poison: In my opinion, the best way to go, you just need to make sure you have enough of the substance.
Yeah…
Do you advocate suicide on this blog? I thought , yes, we could gave a safe place to share our thougjts, but do we really need cheerleaders and a how-to guide?
If you were unable to (in my thoughts and logic) something deep down is sad about this decision. Ever wonder what happens to those forgotten memories? I believe they are still with you, but you don’t consciensly know it. Its the same with feeling, you may be depressed, but somewhere way deep down you unconsciencly will have regrets if you decide to kill yourself. Some part of you still has hope. This is a good thing, because with hope there is happiness.
Overdosing is not the way to go, its one of the most painful ways to go if you dont do it right…For example if your stupid enough to try and OD with aspirin and you end up in the hospital because they got to you in time, well they didnt, most people who OD on aspirin Die a couple weeks later due to the fact that there kidneys are shutting down or cardiopulmonary arrest…theres alot of unpleasantness that comes along with trying to kill yourself..I once tried it(overdose) and woke up two days later covered in vomit and other body fluids in my bed, it was the worst pain ive ever felt.
im here if you wanna talk or need someone to listen or anything i know how everyone on here feels i feel the same way! e-mail me mkafan12@yahoo.com