“There are worst things you can do to the people you love than kill them. No matter how much you think you love somebody, you’ll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.”
I’ve decided that dying is not the worst thing that can happen to you. Living…living everyday…with the knowledge, and the pain, and the hurt, of being betrayed by the only person you gave your heart and soul too.
That kills.
At least when you’re dead you don’t feel a damned thing.
I hate this–hate myself. I disgusts myself. I’m a ***** panzi ass ugly ***** that can’t get over the past because it hurts too much. Maybe I’m just being hard on myself, maybe I actually have a point. I don’t know.
I have no mental illnesses by the way, perfectly healthy I just go insane inside my mind trying to figure out my so called ‘great life’
I have stopped caring. It’s weird to say you feel nothing, and I guess I have to feel something if I am still hurt by what happened in my past. However I do not care anymore…about anything. I have thrown my future away working some dead end job that I just got fired from (lay offs) and I just don’t care.
I don’t understand what we’re here for. Can someone answer me that? I’m not religious so don’t try that approach trust me.
But seriously…we live, we die. What’s the point if we’re gonig to die? when you’re dead you won’t remember this, you don’t feel anything, you won’t take anything with you—so what the hell is the point?!
Why am I alive??? Why!
There’s no point.
To any of this.
And the worst part is, sitting here writing this I just want to kill myself even more for how pathetic I sound.
“I want you to understand what’s going to happen next. The shock will wear off, and it will be replaced by a devastating grief. In time, you will come to terms with what you have done and you’ll just be very, very sad. And that sadness will stay with you for the rest of your life.”
^^^A-fucking-men.
4 comments
Nobody asked you whether or not you want to be put on this earth. Nobody can tell you what the point of life is. You have to start to like yourself, no matter how hard it may be, if you want everything else to start looking better. In the end we all have to die, so you can either sit on your ass and wait for death, or you can get up and do something worthwhile in the meantime. As for killing yourself, well if you feel like that’s the easiest answer then fine, but if you are willing to end your life, why aren’t you willing to try and change it in any way possible. To change the way you see things, the way you think about things, the way you live, the way you feel, the way shit affects you, the way your day goes by..
And i’ve learned that dweling on the past doesn’t get you anywhere, so i would recommend that you try to stop doing this as soon as possible.
hope you feel better
Kay
Love is the most important thing to any human, I hate myself for giving my heart away. My own fault to give so much of myself away to someone else and the question remains “Should we never give ourselves away so much?” I am a red head and still get shit given to me now and I’m fucking 33, and I am definitely big enough and ugly enough to take care of myself. I am a very good fighter and would happily like to remove limbs of those weak fuckers who give me shit. Not a very good outcome for anyone Myself or them and I will look like the Asshole or murderer or the “Red headed asshole murderer” fucking great title.
The truth is as for you like me mate, we might never ever find love again, we gave so much love but did we ever really receive it? fuck knows…. Silly fucking game anyway, still great to feel like a mate on your side and a lover in your bed and a partner who will cook me some eggs when I tell her too, only kidding about the eggs and telling her too, I’d ask real nice and get my ass out of bed and help her if I had a partner that is.
Any fucking who, life is for the living.
I had one really cool love in my life and i guess i am lucky because of that, sometimes I wish i didnt even have that because the loss sucks the big one, wish i had kids, wish a lot of things in my life.
I send you without knowing you a smile a hug and knowledge that people in this world are crazy and love is a word. A four letter word, other four letter words are “****, Fuck, shut, wank, dick, pigs, dogs, cats, fart” what this has to do with anything I have no fucking idea!! I do feel better writing to you some how? Dont know why, even had a laugh writing my crap to you, maybe you should try writing to someone too, please forgive me mate if this comment pisses you off.
Yours Sincerely
Crazy Red headed Asshole.
If we look for people that appreciate shallow things, like looks, yeah then it’s a good posibility everyone would get their heart broke. I’m 6’2″, 250, scars, tatoos, and plenty of other faults. Screw it. If you want a good lookin babe, cruz the strip and invest $20. You’ll be better off in the long run. Otherwise, find someone you can have a simple conversation with. Oh, and by the way, my nickname is Crazy ************. I earned it.
I don’t know how old you are or what kind of life you have experienced up until now but I would like to say a couple of things. One point is that at least you have had love even if for only a short time. It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Love is never about the other person, it is always about you. We are the love you are seeking but know it not. Love always comes from self. A broken heart will mend and love will come again……trust that it will. Everything comes down to trusting the universe.
I think it is very difficult for everyone right now because the world is full of so much fear and darkness. The truth of who and what we are and why we are here has not been revealed in our programming, yet, we are spirits having a human experience! We are coming to an end of an era of darkness and deceit. Trust that there exists a divine plan and that we are
swiftly moving into an era of enlightenment.
I was angry for a long time because the world seemed so full of lies and greed, competition and callousness…….nothing I wanted to be part of…..
but those days are numbered and the old world is crumbling and a new light is rising and will fill all who are willing to embrace it. Forgive yourself and everyone for their innocence and ignorance. For that is what has happened to humanity…..we have been kept in darkness for eons of time. Yet, we have an opportunity to flip the switch on and it is happening now……right now as we speak! Since you have access to the internet, it is time to seek the truth for yourself. There are many sources of truth and empowerment. Look under Unity school of Christianity (not a religion), Kryon of magnetic energy, The Mayan calendar, White Eagle, Dan Millman,
Astara mystery school and thousands of other sources! Be open and willing to change. Have you heard about THE SECRET? Both movie and book and many more! Things are all shifting and we too must shift our reality to something better. Blessing to you.