I truly understand how you feel life is meaningless. I have felt that way for months and it is very painful. SOme days I think its the day to get it over with, because the pain and hopelessness is just unbearable. This life just feels like a dirty little trick played on us by biology, or cosmology, or whatever. The strange thing is, I think that even though we are suicidal )some of us severely so) I don’t think we really WANT to die. I think we just want answers. THough it seems those answers aren’t reachable (outside ourselves) maybe they aren’t even as important as we think they are. That is how I have survived thus far, by thinking, “these questions I have probably aren’t even that important in the scheme of the universe. I am consciousness, a form of electomagnetic energy, and when my body dies this energy that forms my consciousness cannot, (based on quantum physics) die. What I do also is “put off my suicide for one more day.†SInce I am champion procrastinator of the world, this is no large feat for me. I simply “act lazy†and postpone my crucial plans for the next day. Then the next, then the next, so it doesn’t really happen but I’m still comforted by the possibility of not feeling pain the next day, because the option of leaving this world is still in my hands, and I like that option. I NEED that option. ANother thing that helps me slightly is to know that WE ARE NOT STUCK HERE FOREVER!!!!!
That’s the real beauty of it. WHether we become happy at some point or not, everybody leaves their body at some point, presumably to the same place we were before. Then again if that place doesn’t exist and we are jus accidents of biology with no real meaning, then at least we wont’ be around to hurt anymore!!
Just letting you know that you’re not alone in this. I’m right there with you man 
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Hey.
What youre saying is SO TRUE.
Specially the part about procrastination. Ive lost count of how many times ive said “Tomorrow. I can take one more day, then thats it.”
I… yeah. I agree with you.
Sincerely,
christophe
chris-p-barbecue at windowslive dot com
There is relief in knowing that there is an end. Life can be long, or at least seem that way, and we toil and toil and it feels like being knocked back and at best spinning our wheels. I am using everything I have to live. Thinking of my family and friends. But it is really about me. I feel I have lived long enough. I don’t see the big deal.
Hey this is a real good post. ive been doing that for a while too seems to be working pretty well (like trickin myself) and I do still have stuff planned out, but i guess i likeknowing that theres other people with the same questions and stuff i have. keep up with posting! just dont give any more method advice that one you gave was crap and it doesn’t work i know from personal experience, plus I work in a clinic and I know it doesn’t do shit unlesss your diabetic and even then it just makes you slow.
But regardng this post, I do think people forget that it is a high possibility that there is a reason to life and meaning. People tend to only look at the one depressing possibility but you got to look at the whole other side too. thats kept me going as well
yeah..lets just die..life is so dull and empty..life is so boring and meaningless..
Wow.
It would be a shame to lose someone like you who has the guts the ability and the time to write a blurb online.
If your life is dull and empty perhaps you would like the feeling of making other people s life meaningfull.
Maybe my suggestion sounds too hippy or too positive. But try it before you go. Let s say take some time and join for a few hours some community efforts as a volunteer. Like riding your bicycle to deliver hot meals to old people and people who cannot cook for themselves. Send some of your words to a band maybe they can use it for lyrics.
Why not try to give out some of what you have, some of your skills or knowledge before going!
If you know how to write you could held students who cannot do well at school because they have dyslexia or other learning challenges. My guess is that would make you feel valuable.
Life is what you make of it.