 I’m stupid. I can hardly get a C in a class. My dad calls me a flunky, failure, stupid and a *****. I’m not pretty at all. I eat a lot but I’m not super fat. Every one picks fun of me, I’m aways wearing black. My boyfriend and I have been going out for about seven months and still nothing has changed. I haven’t changed. I smoke and I’m only 15. I like to think of older guys. People scar me. I have to many fears. My best hobby would have to be researching serial killers. My parents say I’ll be one.
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 Any one who thinks I should live deffiently doesn’t know me.
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“Any one who thinks I should live deffiently doesn’t know me.”
Not to be disrespectful or anything else but what is the point in saying stupid little things like that?
The fact of the matter is that we are only given one shot at life, so where exactly is the need for such comments? Take each day as it comes with a big smile and a nice fuck you to anyone who gets in your way, and truly enjoy it because you’re not here forever.
Get drunk, laid or do some drugs 🙂
Sweetheart you cannot condemn yourself at this age. You have many memories to make, friends LOL enemies. Life is full of up’s and down’s I too had a rough beginning you make life what you want it to be. You are growing up in 3 years you can change everything. What if you ask your father to get you into a therapist, and start becoming interested in psychology? You could study the cerial killer mind, I was way into the same stuff. Just remember parents are grown children, they don’t always know everything. Especially if they lower themselves enough to beat down their own daughter. Sweetheart find your passion in life, and dont let anyone stop you from geting it. You will be much better than your parents when you are their age….. When you get older you will see, take action to love life while you have it. Message me if you ever need anything 🙂
I research serial killers all the time. I wrote a research paper on them and it was decent enough to get me to 2 academic undergrad conferences in Wisconsin and Maryland. I’m going to those. After I come back I will kill myself if my GPA doesn’t go up. I’m on academic probation right now. I know how you feel. Think of living as a big slap in the face to the little voice in your head that tells you that you don’t deserve it. I live each day to spite that voice.
Ok first i don’t think you will become a serial killer because serial killers think nothings wrong with them, and defiantly would not reach out for help the way you are, just by talking on this website second, if you don’t like your bf then it may be time to end it, third school is hard, i know it is but you do the best you can and your rents should be proud of you for trying your best, fourth you should probably talk to someone like at school a counselor or trusted teacher, because though it may seem impossible to do, they often can help! Fifth your parents don’t appreciate you the way they should, sixth smoking won’t help you i n the long run, i know it feels good right now but it honestly won’t! and seventh I’m 15 too, and i’ve been through shit, if you ever need to talk, write a commment on your note, and heck we’ll talk it out. Good luck!
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for the record id love to read that paper, sounds like it must have been impressive. id like to talk to you, if theres a slight chance itll help you. davidy321@hotmail.com for msn or email
you arent going to kill yourself. You are desperate for someone to see the beauty that oozes from you. In fact, you try to make it difficult so it may feel noteworthy to you. Your black clothes, your tough demeanor, it makes you feel original yet isolated… the tragic romantic song that you wished someone else could see. If it hurts it means something because those feelings are the only ones that really resonate with you.
I dont believe the serial killer fasciation is about the death, killing, or deserving of death. you want to explore the isolation of being completely outcast and sick… and to discover how thin the line really is.
You wont kill yourself though. This isnt a challenge or a bluff call… you know better. thats why.
tell me im wrong. you’ve got plenty to say, and the wrong people have been hearing it.
tell me im wrong.
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