so it 12:00 in the morning and I can’t sleep, why I have’nt been able to sleep for ages.
as I was was lying awake in my bed I thought about my life and why its worth living, I thought should I just go into my kitchen and take all the pills, or go to my dresser and pull out the razor?
I lyed there and thought why why should I live, when no one seems to care, the only thing I live for are broken promisses, lies and pain.
When I go to school there’s only mean glances and people judeing your every move.
when I get home It’s like I don’t exsiste, no one even asked me how my day at school was, or how life is.
When I call for help out of my pain I’m only pushed futher in because all anyone ever does is tell me I’m stupid and should die.
When I log on to the computer nasty letters from everyone come poreing in “she’s an emo kid” “EMO” “GO CUT EMO”
And then I stop to think this world is nothing but hell!
I have no help and I’m pretty sick of living in this life.
I really think those pills sound good right now.
but when I tune out reality the only thing I do is find more ways to hurt myself.
like it’s become an obbsetion!
to find a way out!
I feel like nothing will work I’ve tried everything and nothing works please someone help before it to late!
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Make people aware of you and the person inside, and stick up two fingers to any fucker who tries to put you down.
There’s no doubt in my mind you have lots of potential but try not to see the negative side of everything, despite how shit it may seem.
I have been in a similar situations in the past but i have since found my purpose, enjoying life to the full.
If you want to talk or need anything at all you can reach me via faudulent.fool@gmail.com
If you seriously feel that there is no hope left and are ready to commit suicide…u are not alone. The reason why u notice that no one seems to care is because u are a caring person who is misunderstood by others. Your purpose is to love and it is a necessity element of survival for u. It’s not a sign of weakness to love yourself and live your life. Life is so short. The time will come when u open your eyes and this world will be like a dream. I think u may be a sensitive person and that scares people. Hence, they call u stupid as a defense mechanism. Sorry, but ignorance is a rampant problem on planet earth. Too many bullies are being praised for making more problems on this world. That’s why we are here to fix them. 😉
Hey school has never worked out for me too, or i am always invisible or people hate me and try to push me down with their glares and insults…I dunno it is difficult to stop thinking that suicide is the only option, bt lately I have been able to completaly tune out of my head, kinda like being dead I guess and not thinking at all, music helps, I dunno try it…oh and get off ur computer, for a whole year I just obsessed over my pc and hurtfull msgs just make everything worse, so just dont check its better not knowing
I’ve been where you are, in fact i am where you are. It sucks, it truly does, i sympathize and empathize.
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im more than suicidal. I want this world to end. All of it. All the pain, all the suffering. If there is a God, then they should not be worshipped. A god would not impose this on us. And if we are to “have faith” then God would have given us the mentality to have faith. “God” has to be the most evil creature or concept ever to exist. Why, if not for his own amusement, would a god create a world where people suffer? Where is the justice? some people work so hard, put their heart and soul into the work they do only to be smashed down by the world. where is the justice? others simply hold their hand out and their dreams fall into their outstretched hand. IF the world ended as i hope it will all the suffering and pain will be gone, we will enter a state of eternal bliss, no feeling, no suffering and we wont care because we cant think, so after its happened it doesnt matter that were DEAD. I dont belive in a heaven and hell because this world isnt set out for justice. If god existed he’d give us a chance. People cant help who they are and if god punished them for that…Then i dont think theres a god at all.