back stabbers

Hi.
I think I know what you mean. I have always been an insecure and introvert kid and the only person I ever trusted was this guy. I was really happy when he said he liked me and I almost forgot about my pride. But then very soon he told me I was confused about my feelings and he already got over it. I know it sounds silly but to me at that time was the end of the world. I know some people might think that it is not a big deal at all but believe me I do understand how it feels when you cannot trust anyone anymore. I did think of death, just to cease the pain. I thought of getting really drunk. I locked myself inside the toilet, banging my head against the wall and praying that I could die instantly so that the pain would stop. Those days were horrible but then things got better. I thought if I died just like that, the guy would laugh at me. Not that my death would change his life or anything. It’s simple. If I die, I lose everything. I am still paranoid now . It’s not that I don’t trust anyone but I only trust them to a certain level. I suppose I became cautious. But at least I did not think of suicide again.

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