I am a college student majoring in engineering who is about to graduate in May. Â I have been feeling very suicidal recently because I just got rejected from two different jobs on the same day. Â I have been applying to jobs since August and have been a few interviews, but then have been rejected. Â I felt that these past two jobs that I interviewed for were kinda the last “straw” in terms of getting a job before graduation. I feel like a failure and I am not sure where to go from here. Â I feel pressure from everyone who expects me to get a job before graduation. Â I feel embarrassed that I can’t get a job in my field. Â I am second guessing myself that I maybe I should have picked a different major, but I do truly love the field.Â I have felt suicidal before, since high school from what I can remember. I have always felt unhappy and very anxious all the time.Â Â I have been considering taking some personal time after graduation to figure things out and getting help with my feelings. I do have the option to go to grad school, possibly, after I graduate, but I feel like I would be in the same situation two years from now. I just feel lost and very sad. I just can’t get myself to do anything, but sit on the couch and watch tv and I have things I should do that are more important. Â Where do I go from here?