I just don’t want pain. To much to ask for? Aparently.

Worse of what life? You have said nothing that describes a bad life at all or what is eating at you to make you want to die and leave the earth. If you have only thoughts of suicide then you may be bi polar and need medication. Please talk to your loving parents.

Why are you selfish? Do you really have no empathy and not care about others and yourself? DO you truly not feel any remorse for others or remorse that you might leave your parents grieving your death?

If you really were selfish you would find a reason to live. Life has so much to offer. Most have not even begun to really live, or to live their best life or tried to make a difference or a mark upon the world and are choosing to leave instead.

I choose to be happy. I choose to be the best person I can be each day and I choose to make a difference in my life and in others lives as well. In a way, I guess I am selfish too, because I didn’t take that easy way out of my despair and I chose life. I worked my ass off to give myself the life I wanted. I look back at that miserable human I had let myself become and thankfully I was able to pull myself from the mire.

It sounds as though you have everything but are not making the best of it. Maybe it is time make changes and be really selfish and choose life? Maybe it is also time to be really unselfish and start to give back to the world so you don’t feel so useless and selfish? Life is full of choices …make life a choice and go live it fully..