I am new to this site and not sure how it works. I am hoping to find people who understand and do not judge. I have dealt with depression and anxiety for a few years. My family gets frusterated with me so I choose not to talk about how I am feeling with them. The last few weeks I have been very anxious due to the fact I have been in alot of pain and have to have shoulder surgery in three weeks. That will put me out o work for 4 to 6 weeks, just before my youngests graduation, and all of you that have kids goinng onto college know how expensive thier senior year is.
If it wasn’t for my children I know I would not continue to go on, but every time I feel suicidal I think about how I couldn’t mess up my childrens life like that.
In the scheme of things I know my problems are not that bad, compared to others, but I think we all have different breaking points.
THanks for listening to me vent.
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Hey,
Well Im gonna avoid gender specific references because I don’t know it so while I was thinking of saying man or dude I won’t and will instead let you insert it yourself where necessary. I use it alot so be generous. I am a smart ass too so if those kind of references make you laugh, then go ahead and add lots of them to.
BTW, just found this site so I am new too, just passing through.
FIRSTly, I hear ya. Talking to those who you feel should be close to you can be extremely hard, on both parties. Idk if it is just hard to trust those close to you with the depth of your feelings or maybe people just don’t know how to react to hardships. Discouraging reactions from family and friends hurts alot though, I know.
Also, kudos to you for loving your kids enough to tough it out despite your depression. Im serious about that too. They are lucky kids.
IDK really what to say to offer you more than this except I wysh I could be there for ya right now… and Im a very non-outgoing “guy”, Im really not into the “free hugs” deal. I have done some hospital time myself and also get the beautiful gift of epilepsy. So I sort of understand your pain, at least a bit, and would if it would help. So, internet /hugs. Take care of yourself. Keep loving your kids. Keep venting 🙂
Hope this helps.
Well you found the purpose of the site, to vent and tell your story and hopefully get help, it can be tough it really can to have both depression and aniexity believe me i know what you are going through, and i totally get the second guessing of you problems but what you really need to do is get help, go talk to a counselor a doctor someone who can help you, because even if you are not doing for yourself, do it for your kids : ).. good luck
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