I am new to this site and not sure how it works. I am hoping to find people who understand and do not judge. I have dealt with depression and anxiety for a few years. My family gets frusterated with me so I choose not to talk about how I am feeling with them. The last few weeks I have been very anxious due to the fact I have been in alot of pain and have to have shoulder surgery in three weeks. That will put me out o work for 4 to 6 weeks, just before my youngests graduation, and all of you that have kids goinng onto college know how expensive thier senior year is.
If it wasn’t for my children I know I would not continue to go on, but every time I feel suicidal I think about how I couldn’t mess up my childrens life like that.
In the scheme of things I know my problems are not that bad, compared to others, but I think we all have different breaking points.
THanks for listening to me vent.