Slow death

  April 25th, 2009 by MaybeGodStillLikesMe

Took about 20 iron pills around 11:00pm yesterday from all the crap my parents put me through. I thought I would die in my sleep. Until I found out today I will die a slow death when I woke up today and researched it . I’m transitioning from stage one to 2 soon. It would take me about 3 days to die give or take if I’m not in a coma. Well it could take a week that I could die from an overdose. I told my mom  after I woke up. She made me puke up everything several times after drinking loads of water. Though that was after 6 hours of ingestion. It was a strange feeling. I hesitated in swallowing the pills before, I don’t know what came over me. After I swallowed the pills, I could hear my heart race. My arm was feeling numb. Chills slowing creeping into my body, it was like putting Bengay in your veins. I was fully aware of my surroundings, but I was tired. I lost my ability to cry at that moment. My mom told my dad and he pitched a fit. My parents allowed me to go to work and after I got home (after 2 hours) we had a long talk.  If I had died, I would have killed my dad too. Eventually we made up, but I haven’t been in a hospital yet. Right now I’m eating something. It’s been a whole day since I could digest solid food without puking it back up (involuntarily). I might be able to make it through. Seeing how I was already on fish pills and I was a bit anemic in the first place. But it depends if I survive within the week. Hosiptals are expensive and they won’t help you much in this area. I guess my life is in God’s hands now. Maybe he’ll give me a break and let me live. I’ll give it 2 weeks. I’ll update everyday for each day I’m still alive after this post. If I managed to do that, I’ll live. If not…well it’s been fun while it lasted.

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