I dont really understand why i feel this way…come to think of it, i dont really have as much problems as other people, i mean, I’ve never been raped or anything like that….so im sorry for taking your time. It’s just that…i have no other way i could let this out. My best friend doesnt like to let me talk to her about things like this, and i can’t tell my parents…They’re not here. It’s just that i feel so…empty and alone…always. Im also no good at anything…i cant do anything right, and i have average grades, but i know for a fact that that’s not good enough. I’m horribly ugly, selfish, stupid and all i do is cause problems for everyone i know. My existance is bascially a waste of space.Â I wonder why im even here in this world, because i wasn’t even a good enough reason for my dad to stay. And now he might even take my little brother…I cant take it anymore. And I know this sounds weird or stupid…but i grew up not being allowed to cry. I’d get hit if i did, so i guess i dont really know how to relieve the pain in a different way so…I’ve been cutting for a long time now, and when my best friend found out [she caught me once], she just told me that im a freak, and all i do is add to her problems. And she’s right…i feel really helpless, depressed and lonely. But at the same time, i know there are so many people who have had it worse, and im just adding to everyone else’s burdens…so then im being selfish for feeling this way. Does that even make sense? Or does that even matter…either way, im a just worthless bag of cells, and i deserve to die…im sorry for this post, i just needed to let this out.