Gone Down Hill Since

May 27th, 2009by lostforeveruntillidie

My life all went down hill when i was 13. My dad married my stepmother and she looked at me if I was cinderella. I was told to do everything in the house and when I was finished I was sent to my room. About that time is when I started writing in my Journals and just giving up in life. When I turned 14 on my birthday my dad and I got in a huge fight. He blamed everyones problems on me and he told me hes going to kill himself because of me. That day is when I tried killing myself for the first time. I took a whole bunch of pills and layed down to die. My best friend came in when i was knocked out and got to me to the hostpital just in time.  The doctors said if I wasnt there any sooner I would have died. At school my grades went down and i started getting in fights. I was in and out of the hosptial about 9 times last year. Now I’m a freshman in high school and ever since my first attempt I’ve gone down hill since then. Constantly in the office and barely passing my classes. About a week ago I just got out of the hosptial with the worst attempt yet. I got 12 stiches put in my left wrist. I wasnt suppose to make it that night. I dont know what but every time i go to end this hell of a life something stops me. Just for once I want to lay down and cry my last tear and never wake up again…

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