Today was not a good day as a matter of fact I can’t remember when i’ve ever had a good day. I am about to share something about myself that no even my closest family members know. I have been suffering from depression, PTSD and Bi polar for 15 years. All because my stepfather physicaly,emotionaly abused me when I was a kid. I want nothing more then toÂ end my life because I cannot deal with the constant pain eveyday. I don’t get the support I need form my husband who is the only person I have told that matters to me. My mother knows but she did not protect me than why would she protect me now. What can I do in order to try to live a normal life when its been nothing but SADNESS AND ANGER AND PAIN I NEED HELP NOW. I have tried therapy and it worked for a while but then I stopped because I felt my therapist was not really listening to me how frustrating is that. I tried to cope on my own but recent events have put me in a downward spiral. I have tried to end my life 7 times already and I could not even do that right God I feel so stupid how simple can this be to take the pills and swallow.