Today was not a good day as a matter of fact I can’t remember when i’ve ever had a good day. I am about to share something about myself that no even my closest family members know. I have been suffering from depression, PTSD and Bi polar for 15 years. All because my stepfather physicaly,emotionaly abused me when I was a kid. I want nothing more then to end my life because I cannot deal with the constant pain eveyday. I don’t get the support I need form my husband who is the only person I have told that matters to me. My mother knows but she did not protect me than why would she protect me now. What can I do in order to try to live a normal life when its been nothing but SADNESS AND ANGER AND PAIN I NEED HELP NOW. I have tried therapy and it worked for a while but then I stopped because I felt my therapist was not really listening to me how frustrating is that. I tried to cope on my own but recent events have put me in a downward spiral. I have tried to end my life 7 times already and I could not even do that right God I feel so stupid how simple can this be to take the pills and swallow.
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hey i know how you feel, talk to a theripist, it really can help if you are honest with them.
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I know the frustration of not being able to kill yourself, either from conscience, or just simple failure.
It really makes things worse, or it did for me.
Having a good theripist is very important when you seek help, so have you tried another one? I can understand that it might be hard if you already went to one, and told all your problems to that one, and the thought of going through all that again can be hard.
But if you think further on, maybe in ten years from now you’ll be much better.
Best of luck <3
– lixie