May 12th, 2009 by helper

To be alone, to sit here, to want to move on, but something’s always there holding me back.


I want to move on, I want to get better, but my mind blanks every time I write these words, for this is pure misery, living in a hole, waiting, waiting, to get better.


But I know I will get better, for I have told myself so, but waiting, waiting for that day id like waiting for rain in the desert.


It will happen someday, I really do know, but what to do until then, I just don’t know.


I am not truly happy, oh not now. I fight, and fight, but threes no winning, not with this, someday, I hope and pray everyday.


I didn’t fall last night, is that the start I have been hoping for? I just don’t know, I think it may be, I hope and pray it was the start.


I sit here, sitting among a sea of people, and yet alone.


Someday I pray                                                                                                                       


I will be



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