Cant believe it..

  June 14th, 2009 by hatethisworld

I found out tuesday that my uncle commited suicide…he hung himself from a tree.  God he was brave and the best person in the world. I dont understand why he wanted to die.  I understand why I want to die…I have nothing going for me.  I have thought about killing myself since I was 13… I will be 19 in less then a month.  And I havent thought about killing myself in about 4 months…but since my uncle did it I feel like I want to again. Like I feel like I gave up on the only thing I have wanted to do for such a long time but then again I dont want my family to go through this again…but I want to be selfish at the same time and do it so that I am happy for once.. not them! It is my turn to be happy….what should I do??

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