I don’t feel comfortable talking about my life, even behind a veil of anonymity. Not yet any way, But after a long road i’m now living with my Girlfriend, going on 2 weeks now. We’ve been together 10 months. 10 months of only seeing each other every other weekend, so its a nice change.
I thought i got over this a while ago, after 3 attempts and a long spiral everything seemed to be looking up. i joined the Navy(Â i was later separated because I “might” have ADD( their words not mine) i at least tried, which is much more than many others can say. I was kicked out of my house because i couldn’t find a job, and am now living with her, still trying to find a job.
I’m virtually living off of her right now. i try to compensate, cook food, clean the house, give her a foot massage lol, but i still feel like a free loader. I can already see this is going to be completely random. I’m 19 and am currently addicted to alcohol and cigarettes. not that bad considering most people are addicted to drugs… never touched the stuff( well except weed and acid a few years ago, but it was experimental more than anything) i’m rambling, i’ll write more when i can be cohesive
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that sucks you got kicked out btw
eh, drugs… yea, don’t even try it please. i did this last thursday and was sick untill about last night. ive never really ODed (till then), but it sucks. i honestly dont know if i will get addicted or not. im kind of hopeing i wont, but who knows? now that im the drug is prety much out of my system i can think about other things again. i really don’t like what i think at all. maybe its because i think too much. i dont really talk a lot. mostly because id never get to see my boyfriend if i say some of the things i think. i dont think there bad things to say, but i guess, they could come out wrong. i dont mean to say/think them that way. sometimes things just happen, you know.
eh well i know im just a random person online and you proly dont care. and i am rambling, so sorry. its the only way i know how to make some sence though.
and you say you stopped writing because you were rambling (i think). well you can ramble all you want. most people on this site do so i dont think anyone would mind. i wouldnt anyways. its, in a way, easier to make sence if you ramble. i know, im shuting up now. again, sorry for rambling
hope everything works out great for you
p.s. i just got a job today so there out there so just keep trying
and im free to talk to if you ever need someone to talk to or anything
dont worry about boring people on this site, we are here to help you. this is for support no matter what, and you will always find some words of encouragement. keep trying for that job, eventually you will find something. just look for work that suits your strengths, whatever they may be. dont do drugs, it will fuck up your life insanely. try to cut back on the booze and cigs, thats a money drain and really bad for your mental and physical health. if you need support, you can always look here.