I don’t know why I am doing this. I mean being on this site and just writing. I suppose I have nothing better to do.
I always thought that wanting to die was something everyone thought. To tell you the truth, I have been having suicidal thoughts ever since I was little. Like pre-school but I don’t remember why.
I have slit my wrist before. I just wake up everymorning and want to go back to sleep and smother myself under the blankets. I hate school. I am 15 and I HATE being here. I look around and want to bang my head against the wall.
I dunno what I’m typing but I really can’t be fucked to check because in a couple of minutes I wont be here to care.
Goodbye world…finally.
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What I wouldn’t give to stand right next to you and slap you across the face. I know what it is like to want to die. I’ve been there more than twice. I’ve tried a few times too. And do you want to know what got me through. These few harsh but true words, ‘STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF.’ Your life IS what YOU make it. Make it better. I did. I changed friends. I got more confidence. I laughed more. I found the good things in every situation. I decided I owed it to myself that I would atleast try. Think of all the brilliant things about your life. Your parents? They may not show it sometimes but they love you and would be deverstated if you killed yourself. I mean for gods sake you’re their flesh and blood, their own creation. Any siblings you may have, you would leave a hole in their lives forever. If you die, you won’t get a chance to find the love of your life. Maybe have kids. Earn enough money to buy a house. Go traveling.
Now think of every single thing you would miss out on if you died. I bet that ratio weighs out every bit of the negatives. And I mean you are only fifteen. You haven’t even matured yet!
So think about all this, give life a try. Try making it better. Try to get out of your misery. It’s easier than you think. And then if you still feel like this a year down the track, (which I can tell you now, you won’t) go ahead, kill yourself. Be a coward. But I think you owe it to everyone around you to atleast try. And don’t go giving me bullshit about how you have tried. I bet you haven’t. You’re kind of trying wouldn’t be what I am talking about. You’ll be sixteen sometime soon. Maybe do something crazy. Drink illegally. Have sex. Do something that will show you life is worth living. JUST GIVE LIFE A CHANCE.
And think about this; have you tried to enjoy life?
I wish I was with u to hold u and tell u I understand and just let u cry in my arms I would die to b there 2 help u plz hold on I’m begging u plz don’t give up. My mother told me the other day that these thoughts are a battle within ourselves and we r allowed help but first we must accept where we r and not give up on ourselves and I know if we can hold on we can win this war
please dont do it. if i were there i’d sit with you and help you. but i cant. just remember, ppl love you. STAY STRONG!!! (: <33
How self-righteous people can be. I am obsessing about buying a gun not because I’m feeling sorry for myself. IT’s Easier than you think is really the coward for not respecting or remember how this really feels.
Does anyone know of a site that lacks such preachers and coudl direct me to a practical site that could instruct how to make a final exit with dignity. Where to use a gun, how to practice holding it, meditaing on the final act, how to do it cleanly. Perhaps hire a pro. This would be valuable informaiton, and much more respectful.
Anyone? Thanks. No preaching, please. I’m done.