Im about 13, ive been cutting my self ever sence i was 10.
im deeply depressed,
everyone hates me,
no one loves me for who i am,
people dont look at me for what i am, but what i have done,
i have been beaten when i was little,
ive lost over 50 pounds in a month, just becuz i stoped eating,
peoplel dont belive i will kill my self, i have tryed to multiple times.
i sit in class all day ignored
i dont talk to people
im always getting in trouble
i have thoughts of killing my self and others
i never have done anything for the world yet and i wont, people say i have great talents like, love, brain power and other crap….
i stay home most days, siting in my room crying and crying and cuting my self,
i just want to die!
can anyone help me on how to die fastly, but im looking for slowly too,
if i turn 21 and still arnt dead i will buy a gun and make sure im dead with that….
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Dear Friend: Your feelings are very natural for someone in a deep depression.
Remember that in a depression, the brain is not feeling well, and starts telling you lots of negative things over and over, like a stuck sound recording.
The negative things you’re thinking may not be true.
Have you been to a doctor or therapist? They could help.
You have your whole life before you — so don’t give up!
Try and make your life a little bit better each day. Do a few small things each day to make yourself feel better.
And try not to cut yourself.
Eventually you will be older and have more power over your life. In the meantime, try to be kinder to yourself. The people who say that you have talents may be right. So treat yourself gently, as you are a valuable person.
Be a friend to yourself — show yourself kindness, even if you feel no one else is being kind to you.
When I was your age, I started having very bad depressions. I had almost no friends. I was often in trouble. I could not imagine things would ever get better — but I clung to the hope that one day I would be a grownup, with power over my own life.
So I prepared for that future. And the future has been much better than I expected.
You may have an adult life waiting for you after age 18 that will be better than anything you can imagine. And the person you will be then needs you to be kind to yourself, and start preparing for that future.
Many blessings for a happier life,
Struggling to Survive (been there)
I’m not going to tell you that everything is okay and life is beautiful. Because life is shit. It hurts. And horrible things happen. And you sound just like me- sitting in bed all day crying. I used to cut a lot. Now I’m not brave enough to. I don’t eat either. Or I throw it up. Or I eat and then cry more.
But I want you to please please give it some time. I don’t know. Start a diary. Yell at someone. Tell someone what’s going on. Maybe get some help.
Help sounds stupid. Help sometimes is stupid. But what the hell else is there? There’s doctors and that’s it. And maybe some pills will help. Maybe making friends with a doctor or a psychiatrist will help.
You’re 13. You’re so young. You’re supposed to have so much time.
Maybe you’ll want to email me… annelise1252@yahoo.com
We can be internet friends. I’m only a few years older than year. 16. A girl. maybe we can relate a bit.
Everybody needs somebody, don’t they? It seems like neither of us have somebody. So maybe we can be eachother’s.
Good luck.
I like the yelling at someone idea.
i know how u feel, everyday i want the pain to go away but i know it wont be long now i’m nearly ready to go to end my life to show people who said i was being manipulative when i overdosed i am for real life seems like hell and death my heaven