Life. It hurts.

  July 14th, 2009 by sanitycalling

I’m so sick of having to be strong for everyone. No one seems to understand or care. What’s really wonderful about it is, I’m fine with it. Really. I’ll smile and hide the hurt in my eyes.  Whats new about it? Everytime I try, so very hard, to be who they want me to be. I’m sick of hoping, sick of waiting. I just want to end this. I know I cant. I must live for other people, if not myself. What I meant by being strong, is just letting everyone curse me browbeat me all they want, because I dont want to hurt them. All they can see is them. They dont even try to understand,.  I know I’m being a wimp, but do I not have feelings as well? Why must I be hurt all the time. I just cant take it any more. I want out. I’m sick of this facade. I cant pretend to myself anymore that they do care about me, somewhere deep inside. It  hurts so much, cause I do.  Isnt there an end to this??

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