scared

I’m not too sure why I am posting on here right now. I mean, this is a “suicide” website. For the first tim in a long time I do not want to suicide. I am content about myself. I wouldn’t say happy, I am far from that right now. But I am not feeling… selfish in any way. I am worried about my brother (which isn’t really m brother. he is family friend. we both have a mom and dad, but we call eachothers mom and dad as we would our own. wierd,  i know. we all get along that good though. it’s just like extedned family. we share like everything and treat eachother like brother and sister.). Anyways, he is all depressed lately and stuff. He hasn’t ate in a prety long time. I don’t know what to do. He has never been like this befor. I am sooooo worried about him. If he keeps this up he may become suicidal or start abusing drugs like I did not oo long ago. We are alike in a lot of ways. I look at him and see the same thing happening to him as what happened to me. I don’t want him to be like me: at least not in that way. It worries me so much. I can’t seem to say anything right to him. I am lost. I’ve said everything I can think of. I know I can’t make all of his pain go away, but isn’t there something that can be done…. I am affraid he will end up like me, which won’t be good at all. I want him to be happy. I’m not saying all the time because we all have our days where were not, but he needs to be himself again. The crazy fun-loving brother pain that I know he is. I just hope he will get through it much better than me. I know he can, he is a strong person. This just isn’t like him to be like this. And it dosn’t help that the person that did this keeps comming back just to make things worse and go away again.

I just fellt that I had to get that out there
I love my brother so much