Is it normal to be having suicidal thoughts?
I’m 18, And I don’t think I’d act on the thoughts, But when I start to think about my future, I see me failing, And sometimes think it would be better to end things now. I want to go to school, And be able to have a future, But I’m so self conscious about my body I don’t want to go to school, Because I don’t like people seeing me like this.
My dad died when I was younger, My brother and the rest of my family dislikes me. Besides my mom, She is all I have but she is dealing with a terminal illness and the doctor said she will only have a couple years left.
Sometimes I wish I just had someone who cared enough to want to help me with my problems, And that i had someone to talk to about the suicidal thoughts I get, I sit and think of what I would do, How id do it. I don’t think I will be acting out on it anytime in the near future, Not while my mom is still around anyway.