It’s about time

  August 31st, 2009 by nofeelings

I’ve been trying hard to find a good reason that I should live.  But, sadly, I couldn’t find one.  I don’t wanna make things too complicated, after all, life is smiple.  But, what’s a point if I am not happy?   I’ve been suffering from depression for more than 8 years.  Nothing can cure me.  I can cry several times a day, 7 days a week.  My crying makes me so tired, but I just can’t help it.  I’ve got no family, no friends, I tried to force myself to talk to others, but I hate it, I’m not confortable with it.  I don’t wanna talk to anyone, and I don’t want anyone to talk to me.  I don’t even remeber the last time I talk.  I’ve never been in love before, I don’t know the meaning of love.  actually, I’ve never experience any kind of love, parents love, friends love, lover’s love….no, none.  I don’t remeber what happened when I was a child, I seem forget everything, although I don’t know why.  All I remeber about my life is being sick, got cancer, and tears.  I never laugh, I never did, and I know I’m not gonna to.  I know I’m gonna die alone, I just wish I can die soon.  I really don’t get it, why I have to suffer from all this.  Why?

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