I’m going straight to the point here..I’m undiagnosed. Doctors don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. My symptoms are so random. I used to be so happy and pretty until I started taking birth control. Even though I’m off it now, the damage is already done. If I drink anything, I retain alot and expell little. My skin is darkening and I look like a dude. I’m a freak. No one looks at me the same anymore. I don’ blame them, I hate looking at myself too. I want to get out of this shit hole that is my life. I want to escape from my flawed body and end it. I onlyÂ feel badÂ for my family.Â I have no friends, but that’s ok.Â They’re always fakeÂ anyway andÂ never stay friends for long. Fuck this world. No one can help me.Â A bottle ofÂ tylenol is calling my name.Â When will I stop being such a chicken shit and do it already?