I was diagnosed with cancer 2 years ago. I went through the chemotherepy, and i stopped responding to treatments. I didn’t know what was going to happen, and I didn’t wanna go through anything like that anymore. The doctors started me out on a new experimental medication, and i was on that for 3 months. Turns out, the medicine didnt help me at all, it actually sped up the spreading of my cancer, and now, i only have like a month left.
Everything is going downhill for me, and I have nothing to live for. I want to die so bad, I hate the pain im in, and that I’m making everyone sad by living. I have no family, and I live with a foster family, but thats it. I just broke up with my boyfriend, whos still very much in love with me, and he says he’ll be with me till the end. I told him about my thoughts, and he tried to convince me not to do anything at first, then he just gave up. He wants to be there when I decide to end it, I already had an attempt. But i was stopped. I just don’t see the reason in sticking around when all thats going to happen in the long run is that I”m going to suffer and die anyway. Theres nothing for me to live for. It’s not worth the pain.