killing myself

  September 2nd, 2009 by dreamer

i have had three attempts.

!. od on vicodin, got sick, pain for over a week following, think i did permanent liver damage

2. od on ativan/ambien, friend called 911, transport to hospital, don’t remember much, forced to drink charcoal, hospitalized in mental ward

3. strangulation, friend found me, cut tube off my neck, damaged throat & had difficulty swallowing

if i try again i am going to drink a lot of alcohol, take a bottle of of ativan & hang myself from a bridge near my house. i have the rope and i have been practicing tying noose knots. i’m pretty good at it now.

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