I’ve been thinking of just ending my life. Most of you that are reading this probaly wonder why..Well I’ll tell you. You’ve probaly have heard of “Love”, well have you ever felt it? It’s a painful feeling, yet its a wonderful feeling. Love can strike many emotions: depressed, anger, but love is different for different people. Now me? I felt love, i felt it with someone else, and i still do..The only thing is its only me who feels love now. I am 15 and for the last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling very depressed, and having suicidal thoughts. I don’t know how I am still alive right now.
What happened was I was, and like I said still am, in love with someone, but she just stopped talking to me as much, and eventually just said she didn’t love me anymore. Thats when all these suicidal thoughts came to mind. I just don’t feel like there’s a meaning for me anymore, she was my life, the only thing i care about..but she’s already with someone else, and that just makes me feel worse, now knowing she’s gone for good, I’ve been talking to her, even begging her.. She just doesn’t care anymore. I need help please, just someone to talk to.
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I have a solution for you: don’t get “in love.”
I am someone you can talk to, I can just be there ear you need, or a caring friend. You are so young and life must seem so overwhelming to you right now. But you are going to have a good life, and a long life, its not your time don’t rush it.
myworldmyplanet
Much Love and Blessings,
Dani
Hi, you can email me at Shahnawaz.w.ali@gmail.com and we can talk in detail. I might be able to help and give you some perspective on your situation. Hope to hear from you soon.
Here is an online forum for teens that you may find helpful if you need people similar to you to talk to: http://www.teenhut.net/depression-self-harm-suicide/
im sorry to hear this. it hurts so bad when the person you love hurts you so much. i know what you mean. but your only 15 and you dont need to end your life over this girl. dont get me wrong, i believe you love her, but a person shouldnt kill you, especially the one you love. i want you to think why you love her….what are the reasons and then after think about the reasons you feel so suicidal and depressed….is she really that wonderful?? i know you love her and it hurts so bad, but i promise if you let her go and move on, you’ll feel so much better and you’ll realize she wasnt worth taking your life away.!!! just think about it please….maybe it will help you
I know she might seem like the world to you right now, but she sounds immature and not really worth your time. You’re above her. Believe me, there will be other (and much, much better) ladies in your future who will feel about you the same way you presently feel about her. You will get through this period, and you will be stronger for it. Remember, there are people in this world that really care about you. I wish you all the best.
I got that same problem but I made up somethin you can try.
be her garden and whach over her. I do that for the one’s I loved and lost.
I know how that feels. I lost the girl I really love. But from what I’ve heard someone can find another true love. There may be someone special still out there for you.
To be honest I’m on this site becouse I’ve been feeling suicidal. I lost a woman who I was deaply in love with. And it hurts. There is a song by Leona Lewis “Better in Time” you should look it up. (In the song he ment everything to her, but she still let go and moved on.)
Maybe that helps.
I lost my soulmate – I know how ou feel – I waited a lifetime… I had it all – a fulltime job/full benefits/social circles – I was diagnosaed with a chroniic illness due to the physicality of my work/and extreme high demand/stress – had incompetent inept doctors – each int heir own way. I was getting better – but politics all around – H/R/union/doctors politics brought me down. I met my soulmate – but have nothing to offer since now I am unemployable, no social firends/no extended family. I also ask God to end my life because I have no purpose now … having had it all and then to lose it all is more than I can bear. No one understands why a suicidal person feels that way – often though it is because we have lost soooo much and NOONE person understands – no doctor/no acquanitances – NOONE. I do not really believe there is a God anymore.
If you are oung and havemany friends – distract yourself with them/if you are n school distract yourself with that …. you all still have a chance.
Lourdes. I know and understand exactly how you feel. I too have lost everything. I had a life, promising career, talent and a love to end all loves at least fro me. She got involved with her married boss and left me, lying to me in teh process. I obsessed over her and a year later, long after she stopped talking to me or considering me her friend I had a complete emotional collapse. I was hospitalized and all that but I have steadily gotten worse over the years. It’s now been twenty one years and five months. I still think of her every moment of every hour of every waking day.
I have no job, no money left , a time of debt even after going though bankruptcy, no insurance and no hope. I am now back living with my mother and unemployment is going to run out soon. I do not believe in God anymore even though I am more fortunate than others I know. ( I am not diseased or crippled for instance.) I want to believe but can’t If I did I would feel tremendous anger toward God. I am jealous of my peers, of what they have attained and I have not. I am jealous of their loves, their wealth and their taking these things for granted and I am so Lonely! I long for my former girlfriend and long to be with her but I am also furious at her. She is now wealthy, married to someone else (The man she left me for never left his wife and children for my Love.) and has a fabulous life havign found God and becoming a big shot in her church. I am sure that she hates me for my weakness and obsession over her. I am sure that she dreads me which hurts me to no end.
How is it that one can go from lying next to a lover, to one another in the night caressing each other, taking in each others breath and staying awake just to hold that moment to that person never wanting to see that lover again, ever and regretting that they had ever known them? My feelings for her have never gone away yet she feels nothing for me and went to that place fairly quickly after she left me.. I am furious that His Majesty upstairs has given her such a wonderful life, spouse, child, family beautiful home and I cannot even support myself and have to live off my elderly mother! Why do I constantly think of putting a pistol in my mouth, high power and large calibre and pulling the trigger. the physical damage to my face and skull as it’s blown apart. The blood, hair, brain matter and bone splattered about. I hate myself now so much I can barely stand to look in a mirror and sometimes can’t. I hate myself and find myself saying it out loud. I have to put up a huge effort to be around people and family. I think that most people do not like me and most want nothing to do with me.
I feel for you. The one and only reason why I have not killed myself yet is hurting my mother. My father and sister would not care. Neither would my Love. She would, if she ever found out what happened to me, be relieved. I am consumed by this and it is an agony in my soul.
“love” you talk about killing yourself but just think about all the people that will miss you. think about how much people would hurt. I understand you are in love with the girl but maybe theres someone else for you someone who will love you as much as you love them. Do you wanna disappoint that one person in this world that could be yours and yours only. think about how many people are in this world. maybe there is more then one person meant for you and when you find that person think about how amazing that person will be. So maybe this girl didn’t love you as much as you thought but think about all the people that could love you if they get to know you and that can’t happen if your not here on this earth