A Soul Without Words

I feel exactly the same way. I just need a break for a while. But, it’s kind of like a vacation. You can go on vacation and relax for a while, but the same crap is there to face you when you get home. All I can say is that some days are better than others and you have to “hold on” to the good days. I am job searching now myself and that certainly doesn’t help your self esteem any – rejection is never a good feeling.

Although I do take medication, I have recently lost my insurance so I can’t go to a doctor right now and I don’t know what I’ll do when my medication runs out. I am not poor enough to qualify for help, but I can’t afford medication either. It’s a great situation!

As far as our partners, it’s hard for them because they just don’t understand depression. It’s like trying to describe a color to a blind person. Although they may love you and try to understand, a lot of people think you should be able to pull yourself up and wipe yourself off and be “okay”. And, I know it’s draining to be around a depressed person, but people that love us should understand how draining it is to BE a depressed person. For me, depression just sucks the life right out of me. I can barely get up in the morning, much less accomplish the things I need to do. THEN that makes me even more depressed. Looking around at stuff that needs to be done and then not feeling like doing it makes everything worse. So, it turns into an endless cycle.

Do you take any kind of medication? If you don’t, maybe you should. If you qualify, you may be able to visit your local health department and get some help there – counseling and/or medication. I hope ALL of us feel better SOON.