right now my life consists of mounds of college homework, working 20 to 40 hours per week, family, and a 7 year relationship with my boyfriend. I have already been diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety, and ptsd post traumatic stress disorder). So even though I went through therapy and atayed in the hospital for weeks on end against my will because i tried commiting suicide and not to mention i am currently on meds, i am still terribly depressed and anxious. I don’t know what to do anymore. it seems like once i’m doing good and am happy for a short period of time.. it never lasts. I sleep all the time and I am always tired. I know this is because of the depression.. but i don’t know how to deal with my everyday life feeling this way everyday. I am sooo lost in this miserable body and i don’t know what to do, but i know what I want to do… die. But that doesn’t seem realistic anymore becauswe the ptsd is gone. all i want to do is have a normal fucking life! is that too much to ask?!?!
thanks for listening to me rant and if anyone has advice or any feedback at all, let’s hear it, cuz i’m at my last thread on the rope..