seventy cuts below the waist.

I was and still is a cutter, and I did that promise thing to my boyfriend and made 16 cuts on my wrist in the same week, it’s not easy to get over that addiction I know it’s too hard to stop yourself when you feel like you just have to cut right now, but here’s a thing, when you feel like cutting think twice about it, I know it’s hard to think at that state, but try as hard as you can to focus on one thought, think about how are you going to hide the new scars that you want to make? how are you going to tell your boyfriend about it? and you hide and he found out what are you going to tell him? trust me, cutting after you promised him you wont is like a black point in your relationship if you didn’t tell him about it, at some level it could be as bad as cheating, so I think you should tell him about it, tell him that you were out of your mind and that you wont do it again, tell him that you’re sorry and you felt like he should know what you did… and next time you feel like cutting, go to your kitchen and get some ice cubes and grab them in your fist and hold them for as long as possible, this would give you enough pain but wont actually hurt you, just press in on your palm and keep pressing for a while, and at the same time call someone, anyone you feel comfortable with talking to, and tell them how you feel, or just chat with them about anything…. call your boyfriend for example, if you don’t want to freak him out don’t tell him like “I want to cut myself” just tell him that you are feeling down and you need to have him around or just talk to him because that would make you feel better… I did that like a million times with my boyfriend, and he was totally understanding…

if you like yo talk sometimes here’s my e-mail SuicideSeasonProject@live.com
feel free to write me, and if you need more tips on how to handle cutting just let me know…

thanks for reading

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