It’s hard talking to people about my feelings, people I know,Â and I act happy and nice in front of everyone when really I’m not. I’m fat, mean, gross, rude, repulsive, disgusting,Â greasy, and people hate me because of this. My body looks gross and disgusting it makes me want to puke everytime I see it and I hate seeing all these beautiful people at school and then comparing them to me, it makes me hate myself so much more. Seeing all these skinny, pretty girls and seeing this fat, ugly thing walk by them it’s disgusting. I have noÂ good qualities and I’mÂ pretty much worthless to the world.Â Why is it so hard to be happy? I see so many people who justÂ look happy and please with their life. Why is it so hard to like and accept yourself forÂ who you are? I hateÂ myself and I hate when people stare and when they point and talk about me. I know I’m disgusting and I know IÂ can never be something in the world. Why is it so hard to live a good life and beÂ proud of the accomplishments you made in it? Â Why is it so hard……..