He broke up with me 5 months ago, for very selfish reasons. I’m trying my best to forgive, forget and start anew…but it’s been painful. When he left, he took away all my hopes and dreams with him…and now I’m trying to hang on with everything I have for the sake of my family and friends.
I’ve had insomnia ever since. I can’t sleep except when I take sleeping aids and drink alcohol. And when I wake up in the morning, I wake up anxious, with a constant question ringing in my head : Why am I still here?
I never thought I would be one of those women who would lose herself in a relationship, but I did. And I don’t know where to start searching for myself again. Sometimes I feel like it’s easier to just give up the fight.
I’m tired of feeling pain. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling hopeless. I just want it to end.
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Hey … I know how you feel – I am at this place myself … your post just broke my heart … go see your doctor and get sleeping pills – just take one a night and I swear in a few days you will feel better – it has helped me. I have been thinking of moving to a new place and starting all over again – just me, single again – all the painful places and reminders gone from my site! Crying is a release and even when you feel like you can never stop, it does …
I know exactly how you feel. I think everyone can relate. This happened to me in 2000. It took years to get past the majority of pain. I won’t pretend it’ll be easy; it’s not. Sometimes it’ll feel impossible. But if you can manage to get through one moment, you’re into another one. If you can get through today, you’re into tomorrow. It’s one day at a time.
I can almost guarantee that one day you will feel better. The good news is, is that everyone has been lost in love at some point. That just means you’re normal. But in time things will get better.
In some ways it could be easier to give up. But as with all things, there’s a price tag on easy.
Hang in there… You can do it.
I am going through a similar situation, it’s hard to compare since we are all individuals with different minds but I having same feelings of why am I here and trying to think of my family/friends to keep me here. I am taking my break up hard it’s been almost a year but I made the mistake of having contact and it set me back so I’m about almost three months on the getting over process again. I found i could sleep all day and never leave my bed but as of last night I didn’t go to sleep till 9am and was up again in 3 hours. I am still not tired. This living thing is so hard sometimes, the roller coaster of good and bad days. I know how you feel, I feel it too but I say hang on. I like to think (and hope) one day I’ll look back and think those were some darks day but look where I am now, I never thought i’d make it but I did.
I am going through a similar situation, it’s hard to compare since we are all individuals with different minds but I am having the same feelings of why am I here and trying to think of my family/friends to keep me here. I am taking my break up hard it’s been almost a year but I made the mistake of having contact and it set me back so I’m about almost three months on the getting over process again. I found i could sleep all day and never leave my bed but as of last night I didn’t go to sleep till 9am and was up again in 3 hours. I am still not tired. This living thing is so hard sometimes, the roller coaster of good and bad days. I know how you feel, I feel it too but I say hang on. I like to think (and hope) one day I’ll look back and think those were some dark days but look where I am now, I never thought i’d make it but I did.
Hang in there and you’ll get out of it. I have been throught the worst and best relationships and the constant is that it’s hard to forget the person you were with, especially when you let all your feelings out…but isn’t that the only way to love and also be hurt…the 2 go together. THe best thing for me was to get rid of everything that reminded me of that person and go as far away from him as possible. You have to fight for your happiness and don’t let someone ruin it.