im a 21 female in college. i have been dealing with depression since i was 14. i recently have gone through some emotional battles. i have developed insomnia due to the amount of stress i have encumbered. i recently had a failed suicide attempt. i thought i was strong enought to deal with my emotions, since i have been in therapy and medications for some time. I guess not. I hate being in this dark world and the light feels like it is a thousand miles away. i just want to give up on everything so i dont have to deal with life anymore. i know thats wrong for me to say, but i just dont care about if im here or about the people i hurt when im gone. it will take them time to heal, but i feel like this would be the best thing for me. thats a selfish thing to say but i dont want to hurt anymore. Im not scared of dying, i guess im scared to live.