It’s pretty hard to find help that actually helps. Everyone has the same advice: seek help, talk to someone, think of the people that love you, change your life, get a better job, find love, etc. These are easy things to say when you are on the opposite of each of these and when you just don’t know what help to seek when the help you get is no help at all. For me, talking doesn’t do much. I have a very hard time trusting people because of the way people have been to me in the past, so any advice, anything a therapist has to say is meaningless to me. For me, I arrived at this decision because I tried it all. I tried talking, but talking only made me feel more guilty. I’ve tried getting a better job. I’m not looking for more money, just people who treat me like a civilized person. I’ve tried love and love did not love me back. I’ve plead to God every single day of my life as far as I can remember and God has chosen to turn her back on me. I’ve plead and given thanks and follow the good path in hopes of falling into his graces, but every day he chooses to make it as bad as the day before or a little bit worse.Â I follow her commandments and God still denies me kindness. I no longer see God in every flower, in every child, in every bird. I only feel a cloud of darkness and feel evil all around me. I smile at everyone. I’m kind to everyone. I bite my tongue so as not to speak ill of anyone. I let everyone cut in in front of me at the interchange because it’s the kind thing to do, yet life rewards me with loss, misfortune, accidents, illness, violence, libelous gossip, mistreatment, humiliation, loneliness and abandon. I think the choice to turn your back on life is when life takes so much away from you. Has anyone read “The Giving Tree?”. For many of us, we are nothing but the stump at the end of the book. A person on
said it best with her comment:
June 14th, 2009 at 6:02 am People are hilarious. They treat fellow human beings like excrement, especially anyone who has the misfortune of being different in any way. Then they act surprised when people whoâ€™ve been treated like garbage all their lives want to die. Itâ€™s true what George Carlin said, â€œJust think of how stupid the average person is, and then realize half of them are even stupider!â€
I, like many here, typed a question on Google: How to kill myself without anyone finding out it’s suicide
This question brought us to this and many other sites.