Fuck Life

November 20th, 2009by brad90210

My time on earth will most likely be ending sooner than I had originally planned. I don’t want to hurt my family, but I am not able to go on any longer. I don’t think this is a selfish move; I believe it’s a gift… A gift not only to my family, but a gift to the world. I am too ill to contribute anything. I feel very unwanted, and unloved. Life feels false.
I hope I return to a place where I can feel love and happiness. I have learned a great deal during my lifetime…
I don’t take any of the lessons I learned for granted…
But I feel like there is always going to be an element of sickness inside me… An element that cannot be healed on the Earth plane.
For these reasons I am going to plan my return home.
I make this decision in logic and I make this decision over a period of time.
I wanted to wait until age 50+ to die… But I now realize that I don’t have to wait that long… And even if I did wait that long, all I would be doing is putting myself thru emotional, physical, and spiritual pain… I could bare it; but I don’t see the point in that.

I have to take my time and plan my escape very meticulously. This will be a one shot drop – literally.

I hope that those on this plane and the other side will not be disappointed and I hope that everyone will forgive what I am going to do.

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