I cant take it.

I would invite you guys to go to youtube and check the story of Elena Mukhina. The Russian olympic gymnast of the 80’s. Learn about what her life was and then have a talk with yourselves. That little girl has entered my life for the rest of it. And basically all kinds of sad events in life should be compared with her to see if any of us has the shame to feel pity for himself.
Elena Mukhina was a world class gymnast of the Soviet Era. When she was around 10 her parents died in a horrible fire in their home. She was coming from school to kiss her mum and was told the news.
The Sports Committe of the Soviet Union put the girl into a concentration camp for super gifted athlets. That world became her only family She was training 14 hours a day. She was put into doing terrible exercises and broke her leg twice. She broke it before the olympics and so they forced her into surgery they took the plaster too soon off and forced again to do that dangerous exercise about which she was terrified. Her leg failed, she landed on her neck and broke it at the age of 19. Then the Olympic star was abandoned on a wheel chair where she lived in a dark room until she died of desolation and immobility at the age of 46. I did not know about it until she died. You will see the pictures of these “fallen angel” you will see the videos of her sweet smile. That has shattered my heart without repair.

The tragedy that I cannot hug that little girl that I cannot tell her that I will always be by her side is the deepest irremediable pain.

Therefore, at least, in honour of that girl, you should care more for yourseves because that little girl never contemplated suicided although her life was a horrific shattering tragedy.