I had it all, I really had it all. For so many years I thought i was the luckiest person in the world. I loved playing football, I loved school and most of all i loved my beautiful mother and my family. What was once a dream turned into a nightmare that just wont stop? Iâ€™m a good and quiet kid, why wonâ€™t this demon like me alone. The day I lost my mother my whole life has changed. my heart is like a puzzle. I needed my mother to complete it. All my pieces are gone now. I watched my own mother die in my own hands after being shot myself. I donâ€™t deserve this. My story only gets worst. two things i loved the most in life where taken away from me. I was playing football in college and made a stupid decision and got kicked off the team. I worked my whole life for this. I canâ€™t afford school. No matter how hard i study i can pass my classes. Nothing is going my way. This week i found out Iâ€™m losing my mother home. all her hard work gone. this world is so mean, so cruel, i hate it, im so sorry to my siblings im so sorry i cry now thinking how bad im going to be missed but i been living in pain for the past 2 years. i cant take it, i just cant take it, i donâ€™t need help i donâ€™t need anything, Iâ€™m not a quitter, these are only half of my problems, everyone see me and thinks everything is all good. I hide the pain but for no longer will i have to deal with this pain, its no one fault donâ€™t cry for me and donâ€™t feel sorry, i will finally be happy and at peace.