And I just keep going on…

December 23rd, 2009by fallen_angel_y

People are hypocrites . I’ve always thought it’s best to be by myself. Why? It may sound sad, but I’m the only one who understands me. I’m sick of people .And they are sick of me .Even my parents make me miserable and don’t like me. My friends avoid me. They don’t care about me, it’s the same if I exist or not. Then what? Does this makes me a bad person? Maybe. When I put all my efforts into something, it’s still for nothing. And there it comes the pain. The pain of being lonely? No. I like being by me. Just the pain of all those hatred towards me. My parents insult me and they are rude to me all the time. Usually it doesn’t bother me, but they just keep intruding and they won’t leave me alone. I can’t escape from the people even in my home. And I just want it to end. All of it. I don’t want to feel. But  when I make it end , there will be nothing left. Cause I won’t be there. There are people who have endured much, but they don’t feel sorry for themselves. But they are strong. And I’m not. I don’t express my emotions cause people won’t listen or understand. I know that. I don’t express my pain. They all think I’m happy and just a normal person. But I’m not. Cause the pain is in me and sometimes it hurts too much. A last cry for help maybe? Who knows…

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