About 2 years ago my family was great. My mom had a stroke and left our family when I was six but I really didn’t care cause she’s just a cheating whore. After she left my dad started to do great in business and us 3 kids werehis only concern, he did everything for us and if we needed something he would litteraly leave that very second and do it. He was the only person Ive ever truely loved. 3 years ago he was diagnosed with cancer and it was in his lymphnodes (spelling?). In his 2 year battle with cancer I saw him go from 6’6 strong determined father to a man that had to have his 15 year old son and his brother help him use the bathroom and do things like that. He died last October. Ever since then I’ve been feeling suicidal. Hewas my best friend and every day he’s gone I just feel like telling everybody to Fuck off and not talk to me because i’ve gottento the point Where I just hate most people. But I hate myself the most. I don’t want to die but I feel like I have to so I can seemy best friend and dad again. I know my dad wentto heaven but I’m not sure if people who commit suicide will go to heaven. I realize killing myself is not the answer but WHAT THE FUCK IS THE ANSWER?! nobody knows cause this world is infested with idiots.
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Back in the day when I went to church, I was told if you committed suicide, you wouldn’t go to heaven.
The answer? Fucks me. When you figure it out, let me know yeah?
Let me know as well, thanks. and if u want to talk my email is rjabercrombie213@gmail.com
Rachel
I can understand your reasoning. But know that this world is finite and after that, it is infinite. You have to make the most of what you have. I know from what you say about your dad, that he would never want you to do this. He would want you to live your life for him. I know I hate all that crap about, bad things happening to good people. I cant tell you why this had to happen to you or that there is even a purpose, but it is up to you to make it have a purpose. You can not allow your dad’s death to result in your death as well. Our life is so short, and eventually, you will see your dad, but only when the time is right.
live… that’s the best thing you could do for your Dad, do some cancer researching if you don’t want what happened with your Dad to happen to other people, do something that would make him proud of you…
Bless your dad, loving person who loved his children so much! The pain that you feel now is impossible to avoid, and each of us, together with you feel so powerless and helpless because none of us is free from that. It is shattering. I personally cannot cope with such things. Other people have other make up and get over it and find a lover and or a wife and get married and have their own family.
I can see that you are well made, your dad made you grow up well, and taught you what love was. Keep the love and the memory of your father forever, basically in everything you do. You will need a good young man as a companion in life. Choose it bloody well. Choose it with you ears, not with your eyes. You cannot afford to get a wrong man. Choose him by his heart.