I’m not a therapist. My name is Eric and I’m a human being with experience.
Personally, I am a female-to-male transsexual (FTM)–transgender–and I attempted suicide not once, but twice. I’m 31 now but when I was 14 and later when I was 19, life was less than livable. I felt like I was the only person on the planet who felt the way I did about my gender, my sexuality, my body, and my soul. I took pills and nearly drank myself to death. But I figured out that if I could not make a suicide complete with two tries, then I was not meant to be in that position. I found some help.
If you are gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender, or you are questioning your identity, you are not alone. You are not mentally ill. You are not insane. You are not an abomination. You will not go to hell. You are not forgotten. You are valuable and can contribute positive things to your community.
I live in Michigan but I can help people to find positive resources, no matter where they live. And I can be a friend. I am on Facebook and Myspace. I have e-mail. I have a phone. I can be a source of support. Don’t wait… write to me. I can and will help you. Because I know what it’s like.
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Hey Eric,
I’m transsexual too, but MtF not FtM. I’m like soo feeling at my wits end now and totally hate both myself and this worthless fucking life. But I assure you not cuz I’m trans, yeah, it’s too long a story. I’m 37; and been living as a female since I was 17, so a very long time. Basically I’ve made alot of really stupid decisions and’ve suffered the consequences, and the pain’s now eating me up inside, so I’m just completely over it all, luckily it won’t be long now till I can let go now…
Hey eric well I’m a lesbian and mad. I don’t understand why ppl r so mean. And why they don’t let glbt ppl b happy I’m 16. Pls write
help me.
please.
littleasianm@houstontc.net.
I think alot of people are mean to GLBT folk cuz we represent a threat to heterosexist dominance in our culture; and because we represent a truly alternative way of being that doesn’t fit into their narrow little definition of normality, basically they hate us cuz we refuse to conform to the underlaying heteronormative rules in our society. But it gets even more complex than that for many people hate us cuz we are true to ourselves; and deep down they know they have the same feelings, and that disgusts them. I hope that helped. ^_^
Hmm. I totally hate my life. There are no resources where I am. I’ve been in transition for 3 years. 2009 was the worst year of my entire life when I lost my job and had to move back to my hometown to live with a parent. I really just want to die. Seriously. I bought a gun just for the cause.