I can’t do this anymore!

  December 14th, 2009 by Whitney

Day after day I sit here, hoping the pain will some how come to an end. The only things I ever feel are being numb and horrible emotional pain. My world is an ugly shade of gray.
So much has happened and I can’t trust anyone around me enough to talk about it. My mom says I can talk to her but everytime I do she either calls me crazy or tells me I’m lying. I can’t go on like this.
I started cutting when I was about nine. Now at seventeen its much worse. I have started thinking about suicide daily and the feelings just keep getting stronger. I don’t know what to do anymore!
I have a hard time with religion. I no longer have that to turn to. Too much has happened to turn me against it.
I have pushed everyone I once held close away. They don’t understand these feelings and they never will…I feel so alone!

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