I need help!

I am in a terrible situation in life and I have no place to run and don’t have to courage to die though dieing would solve all my problems. I am a 28 year old girl and have been married for the last 2 years. My husband seems to be a nice guy to everyone in the world but me. We have had lots of family issues and I prove to be the ugly one always. I dont earn and I am stuck in a country where my parents dont live. I have no money to leave the country, take a flight and run to my parents for help. Even if I had, running to my parents would have been my last options because they are very old and they would die to see their daughter in so much emotional pain. I have tried killing myself but don’t know how to do it. I have stopped eating and I guess thats the best option case I dont have money to go out and look for a building to jump from or have a gun to shoot myself. I am totally helpless and don’t know what to do! Frankly, I have been a good wife, cooked food all day, did the dishes, have been a loyal but may be my husband thinks that am lacking somewhere. It seems very pointless for me to live a life with so much pain.