I want to kill myself

  December 14th, 2009 by danielleharr1

I have been living together with my fiancee for almost 6 years. Last night he told me that he made his descision and wants to break up with me. My heart is broken. He was the last person I had left in my life who loved me, and now he wants to leave. Our relationship has been tough, but we have been through so much, I just don’t understand why he is giving up now. We were planning on getting married in April, and now I just don’t know what to do with myslef. I have had suicidal thoughts since I was 12 years old, and they are all coming back to me. I feel like I can’t breathe. I just want him to stay with me I love him so much, and cannot picture my life with anyone else but him. He is my soul mate, and I want nothing more than to work out our problems, and live our lives together. I wish he understood how I felt, but he wouldn’t even give me an explanation or tell me what made him to decide to end everything. Where did it all go wrong, I know we’ve had lots of financial problems with the economy being the way it is, I guess we just get to ba another statistic. Statistic for a couple not working out after having been together for so many years, statistic for me having to maybe kill myself. I just want him to know that I love him. I always have, and I always will. He is my everything, and will always be.

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