I am a 15 year old girl from New Zealand.
and i have had a prety bad year.
i take my ager and stress out with wwrighting songs and cutting.
but does any one understand why?
ive tried to explain, but i only get judged for my own life.
know one knows what i have been thro,
ive tried to explain it to my bes mate who cuts aswell, but even she could not help me, she judged me as well….so not even cutters understand each other..
i have drifted away from my whole family, i am never happy
i have been abused, threatened, and used. i have been with 5 guys sexually, who have all used me just for sex.
my family makes medo everything around the house, and i dnt even get a lil thank you, today i vacumed the house and the office, washed 3 cars, cleaned 2 bathrooms, dusted the whole house, mum and dad came home and just started drinking, telling me that i had done nothing all day!!
Ino this might seem really childish and silly to every one else, but it has really got to me, its been appening since half way through 08 and i am sick and tired of get treated like shit!!
my friends have dis owned me, there are rumors going around about me, no one likes me, no one talks to me, party acros the road with all my old mates, my house got egged,paintballed and toilet papered!!
 havent done any thing wrong to these people and they still hate me for no reason!!
yes ino, this all sounds lame and pathetic, but being a 15year old girl, yu need friends,yu need family, you need some one to talk to,to help you through everything!
I HAVE LITERALLY NO-ONE!!
no one wud care if i took a gun to my head this very second! not even my family….why has god put me here, im not ment to be.. if i was, prety stink life thats gonna end very soon!!
6 comments
I understand what your going thru exactly im 17 and i live in auzi had the worst year of my life all my friends have turnd on me and my family dont listn at all they just say harden up and they make me clean the house as well and if one thing isnt done up to scratch i get yelld and screamd at ive done cutting and they sent me away to a phyciactic hospital for 2 months so if u need to talk bout it u can only person i talk to my dog
i don’t want you to take a gun to your head and kill yourself. i don’t even want you to be around guns. or drugs or alcohol or anything that might harm you. not because i don’t trust you, but because you should be in a better world than this. i want better things for you.
yes, being a 15 year old girl you definitely do need friends. please don’t feel so terrible though. you do have a friend, you have Jesus. please talk to me here: http://suicideproject.org/2009/12/please-let-me-help-23/ and please take care of yourself, for my sake at least. i don’t even know your name but you’re just as important to me as anybody else, because i know that God sees you that way. really. please don’t disregard what i am saying. you are important.
I know how you feel. I’m 15 as well, and people are just like, oh, shes just going through a stage, she’ll be fine. Yeah, whatever. Do you want to talk about it? I feel kinda stupid asking, but if you want, seems like we have a fair bit in common, how lucky..
I know what ur talkinq about, im 13 yeah younq i had try to kill my self like 3 times and my family dont understand me or do not even care if i die. i clean i do anythinq to make them happy bt there never happy with me, Why? idk maybe cuz i wasent ment to be in this world wich i have just take and take shiit from friends family and people i dont even know, bt dont worry u ill be okey if u need a friend just talk to me or righ ur feelinq in a white piece of paper , that what i do, sence i have no one to talk to onli my paper and this site,
Take care…..
Dnt say u have no1 u have me i’ll b ur friend we have ALOT in common I know just how u feel. Like the world is turning agains u init? Like ur going in a world full off nothingness? Because that’s how I feel. What’s the point in living if ur treated like a peace of shit!!! I’ll b ur friend
i’d care so hit me up if u wanna
e-mail mkafan12@yahoo.com