I woke up 2day and look in the miror and said 2my self “ur so ugly how culd any1 love or evan like u” and I got so angrey wid my self I smashed the miror luckaly my parents where asleep up steers coz if they new I broke it I wuld be in some deeper shit that I am already in now, y do I have 2 b ugly I hate my self so much I wish I culd just drop dead I’ve asked god 2 kill me but he never answered I almost kill myself last night with a knife but I chikend out see I’m also a big ugly fauila I can never do any thing there’s no point of me bing on this earth mayb I shuld overe dose myself with drugs!!!! No1 wuld care
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I get what you mean about the mirror, I have gotten angry and without realizing broken something. I got in trouble, sure, but it fades, you just have to block yourself off, mentally be prepared for them maybe getting angry, but be ready to explain to them how you feel.
No parent does not care, you just have to be really open with them. Who ever you are closest to, speak to them first, alone. Be prepared to sound silly to yourself, because its hard to admit something, but I’m sure they would want to understand how you feel, even when you don’t think they do.
As for thinking that you are ‘ugly’, I really think there’s no such thing. Ok, so this sounds corny, probably over-said, but it worked for me. Write down a list of the things you consider a ‘flaw’, my list was long… But, once you’ve done that, next to each ‘flaw’, write a solution. I hated my hair, hated the way it stuck out like a sore thumb, so I decided to find a style to suit me. And, sure, there are things you can’t change, I have a big birthmark (huge) on my arm near my hand, its super dark and visible, and for years I wore a sweater in smoldering heat to cover it up, until I decided that I didn’t have a solution for it, I couldn’t change it, so I thought ‘screw it, count your blessings’. And I did, I figured that it’s only a mark, I am lucky to have an arm that works well, so I should be happy with that. It’s a blessing.
I don’t know if any of this helps, but I hope it does. Cause I do care.
Sandra.
Thank u so much 4 helping but talking 2 my perants ist ad easy as u say it is 4 me, but thank u 4 the support
ur wrong many millions of people would care they just dont know u, and im here so u better hit me up!
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