Hey,
My story is probably just like yours…just a little different i guess. My story isn’t long but it’s something at least… In short, I can’t be myself. My mother is against my sexuality and the person that I’m involved with and I am now home schooled in the hope of keeping me away from this person…it doesn’t make since. Everyone wants me back at school even the people that are against me and yet still my mother does these things. I can’t do any of the coping skills that I’ve been taught to do because she doesn’t like them apparently…
In one year i will be gone and away from this stupid house that i live in…i’m turing 17 soon and I wish i was turning 18 instead. But i guess you can’t dwell on wishes can you??? Anyways, I’m waiting…I’m waiting to be with my love now because i can’t see or talk to her… i don’t know why i love her the way that i do but i do…i couldn’t help it. She will wait for me too i know this for surtain but the problem is simply that it’s hard when you want something so bad and you can’t have it…it hurts me terribly and my mother doesn’t even care. She has sent me away 5 times, and the only reason i am back is because she missed me or what ever….i don’t care what she thinks of me anymore because by her taking me away from my friends and my true love, all it’s done is made me want to cut even more then usual and just a few months ago i tried to commit suicide…it didn’t work of course because i’m still here but…i don’t know anymore i guess. I’v been forced away from my religion and so i don’t believe in anything anymore…
I don’t know what i should do and i don’t know what I’m going to do about my mother who thinks shes doing what she thinks is best for me when really all she had done is pushed me down even further…can’t she see that i’m happier when i’m with my friends or when i’m with my love???
I’ve been dealing with this for a year now and i have one more left before i can be reunited with my baby girl…if she is still waiting for me that is…
When I’m 18…if i’m still alive by then…I’m gone. These people will be out of my life and it will just be me and my girl.
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i don’t blame you for wanting to leave.
you say you’ve been forced from your religion – but what religion was that? was it christianity? because christianity forces no one and welcomes everyone. if your mom is so against your sexuality that she refuses to love you, then she’s doing the wrong thing.
please don’t let her deceive you – real christians love gay people just as much as they love straight people. it’s not about sexuality. a person’s sexuality does not define who they are. no christian is supposed to hate sinners – only hate the sin. and i am a christian.
please let me try to help you with anything i can. read my post, please, http://suicideproject.org/2009/12/please-read/
Sweetie,
I am a 15 year old girl and I am bisexual.
My parents have stopped acknowledging my existence since I was 13.
I know how it feels to be separated from the one thing that makes you smile.
I know how fruastrating it is for us to try and get our parents to love us.
To accept.
I know kiddo.
But you know what, youre going to be 18 soon and then you can get out.
Away from it all and live how you want to live.
Keep that in mind.
Hon I am also a transsexual; I’m now 37 years old and the last time I saw my family was when I was around 17, not long after I started transitioning. My mum died about ten years ago and my dad about 2 years ago; they never accepted, nor acknowledged who or what I am… so I know how tough it is being different.
And K3T you either accept people the way they are, or you don’t, basically it’s that simple. I’m sorry but that bullshit line of “we hate the sin but love the sinner” is a hypocritical and bigoted excuse for intolerance of those who are different, I repeat, you have to accept people the way they are.
It feels like I’m dieing when I’m away from baby girl!!! And every once and awhile when i do see her, i start to cry and she trys not to…the last time i was sith her my mom found out and called the cops…i had never kissed her like that before in my life!!! When my sister texted me and told me to get home because my mom new i was gone, god it ripped me apart! it felt like i had lost my love!!! I kissed her like i didn’t want to go but i had to…she told me not to cry and that she loves me :,(