i lost my best friend who was 18 to suicide on november 5th, 2009. To read some of the things people have wrote breaks my heart. I wish there was something i could do to save you, to keep those thoughts away, to let you know somebody cares and loves you so much, i promise you. I wish more then ever i could bring her back to me, I wish i was with her that night and stopped her, talked her out of it, said to her Krissy, i love you. You are my best friend and i couldnt possibly write in words how much you mean to me. So many things run through my mind. How could i have been so stupid to not realize this would happen. I’m sorry, It’s my fault i had to work and couldn’t come over the night you did it when you called and asked me too. I’m truly so sorry that the pain you were feeling was was so bad. i’m so sorry Krissy. I’m so sorry for everyone who is feeling like they just can’t do it anymore. i promise you, it gets better. I just pray that suicide isn’t the answer. I have never felt this terrible in my life. the pain just won’t go away. Everything i do reminds me of her. If she is looking down on my right now from heaven, this is for her.
Krissy, my best friend. i LOVE you. you are the most amazing person i have ever met. You were so inspiring to me. I loved everything about you, your smile, your laugh, your beauty, your intelligence, your personality, your humor. i miss it so much. i wish i could hear your laugh one more time. I can’t go a day.. no i can’t go an hour without thinking of you. You were so beautiful inside and out. I will promise you something okay? I will never ever forget about out. you will be in my heart forever. i hope you know that. I’m so so so so so sorry for the pain you were in that i was to stupid to realize it was that bad and that you turned to suicude. i would have helped you. why didn’t you tell me? why didn’t you come to me? i’m so sorry i wasn’t there for you that night, i would have been there instantly you know that krissy, I never got to say goodbye, and i won’t because i know your out there somewhere watching over me. keep me safe okay? i need you more then ever. i’m so sorry. i can’t stop saying sorry. please forgive me. love your best friend forever
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I’m really sorry for your loss.
Krissy must really mean a lot to you. It’s really hard to believe that your best friend could do something like this.
-This story has really touched me. It made me cry so much.
It makes me not want to kill myself. Because i defiantly do not want to cause harm to my friends.
“You’re not the only one, your going to hurt” (Quote from The Whitlams)
Thank you.
Never blame yourself. as the one in your friend krissy’s shoes, wanting to kill myself..I wouldnt want you to blame yourself. its not your fault. know that its not your fault.
please don’t feel bad.
and please don’t lose hope for individuals in the world. the world as a whole cannot ever be saved, but you can help someone, or two someone’s, or more, if you really try.
please talk to me.
http://suicideproject.org/2009/12/please-read/
Babe you may feel like it’s your fault and I’m not going to tell you that it isn’t because that’s what everyone else is saying and it’s probably not getting threw to you youre probably just getting more and more upset when some one says it’s not your fault…i think you need to make sure that you always keep krissy in your heart! I’m sure she loves you deeply to she just couldn’t handle what was going on…just never forget her!
But remember you need to forget the past but don’t forget what it tought you!!! You need to believe that, love.
I don’t know if this will mean much to you coming from a stranger, but I know in one way or another what you are going through.
In twenty days it will be one year since my best friend took his life. It was the most difficult thing I encountered in my life, ever. He asked to come see me, but I was feeling down so lied and said I was busy. I regret that to this day. Everyday, I can’t help but think, what if I had just let him come? Would it be better? Would he still be here? But, I’m starting to realize all the “what ifs” wont bring him back. It’s been the most difficult thing ever. There’s so much I still want to say to him, so much I still want to hear him say back.
For the last year I’ve suffered from depression and anxiety. It was tough, but I made it through. I know you can, no matter how down you get, don’t let it get to you. Don’t let it win.
You were the for her, you were doing all you could, even if it doesn’t seem like it now. If anything, you would have given her more time. Cherish the times you spent with her. Keep her close to your heart. Make her proud.