My point will be to keep this short, I hope I can stick to that.
I’m a cutter and I’m sick of being ashamed. I’m sick of hiding it and convincingly covering up my suicide attempts. I honestly just want the desire to kill myself to go away. I’ve felt happiness and I want it more and more. I’m having a hard time getting that because of my relationship with myself mostly, with my family, and the fact I can’t stop failing school.
Anyone have any advice? I’ve been in this same rut for about 5 years, and I feel like I’m 12 years old again, cutting myself in the corner praying I’ll feel better dead.
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you don’t have to hurt yourself, the world will hurt you enough. but suffering is only a part of life. but there’s no meaning to live without God.
God gives a meaning to suffering.
please let me try to help you, see my post here: http://suicideproject.org/2009/12/please-read/
The meaning you religious fundies get from your imaginary god is vicarious at best, and at worst is delusional in the extreme… so if your not feeling suicidal yourself K3T, then please stop coming on here just to preach!!! =(
i understand how ur feeling…a few days ago i had a pretty serious emotional break…took out all the stress, all the problems, all the emotional hurt on the one person ii love more then anyone else…
my family never helps, theyre usually the cause of the pain…
failing at school over n over again does some damage…
i dnt love myself…which is the other major source of the pain…
but ive learned to live for the good times..
even tho they havent been coming often…
but sticking around for even one happy moment, is worth the hurt all the rest of the time…
yu just have to find something, one thing, thats worth living for…
thats when you’ll start healing…wen ull see life as a good thing, instead of a bad one…
dnt get me wrong, the bad times still come,
but if yu have something good to fall back on,
yu’ll make it
jus keep ur head up and keep swimming =]