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I’m not all that sure what I’m going to write, I just know that I NEED to write. Blahh I’m not all that sure what’s going on with me but I know I want to die and I know I need to die. Death is all that will cure me of the things going on in my life. I need to die, and if your planning on giving me a bunch of, “You have so much potential and there is so much in your future,” crap stop reading now. I don’t want your pity I just want to write.  I’ve been having constant suicidal thoughts since December 22nd, 2009 and I have been diagnosed with depression. I can’t stop thinking about killing myself but since I know that probably won’t happen soon, unfortunatly, I have thought more about cutting than suicide. I have never cut but I have the urge to start. I know it’s addicting and shit so don’t comment telling my that either because it will only piss me off.  I want to cut and see if it will bring me a release, I need something to ease my pain and that is the only thing I can think of. My One Release.