fml. I am finished, finished trying to stop myself, finished letting people stop me. I need to cut, I need that release. You can’t stop me. I am consumed with hurt, pain, and a desire to die. That desire is overwhelming me and I just want to die. I can’t do it anymore, I won’t do it anymore. I pray that I will die and that’s not working. I don’t think I have the strength to pull the trigger but eventually I know I will. I want to die on a wednesday, before church. The people that have hurt me most are at church and they know that I never miss a wednesday. I want them to regret the way they have treated me. I want her, her specifically, to feel horrible. Because she has pushed me to my limit!!
I want to be dead, because this. This pain. I can’t handle it. Death is my only desire.